“It can’t be,” I said.
The voice rang out again from the back. “Andrew… don’t take another step if you’re coming here to hurt her.” My body went limp. It was my father.
Ralph
. The man whose photograph my mother had kept face down for thirty years. The man she only ever spoke of by saying, “He died because he didn’t know how to be responsible.” The man I brought flowers to every Veterans Day at a nameless grave in the city cemetery, because my mother swore there was nothing left of him. But there was his voice. Older. Hoarser. Alive.
I shoved some boxes aside and moved down the narrow passage. The walls were damp, made of old stone—like those hidden tunnels in
Savannah
people mention in hushed tones, saying they connected old mansions, churches, and family secrets that no one ever wanted to face in a mirror. My mother grabbed my arm. “Don’t go in, son.” For the first time, her hand didn’t feel protective. It felt like a claw. “Let go of me.” “Andrew, please. That man destroyed us.” “I heard his voice.” She started to cry. But this time, her tears arrived too late. I broke free and kept going.
At the end was a wooden door swollen from the humidity. It was cracked open. On the other side,
Sarah
was sitting on the floor, wrapped in an old blanket, her face ghostly white and one hand pressed hard against her stomach. Beside her was my father. Thin. Grey-haired. With a hunched back. But with my exact same eyes.
For a second, no one spoke. I looked at Sarah, then at him, then back at Sarah. Her lips were chapped and there were red marks on her arms where I had gripped her the night before. That was the first true evidence against me. Not the pregnancy test. Not the passage. Her arms.
“Sarah,” I whispered. She didn’t move. My father raised a hand, as if he still had the right to stop me. “Don’t come any closer if you’re with
her
.” “Her.” He didn’t say “your mother.” He said “her.” It hurt more than I could understand.
“Dad,” I said, and the word came out as if I were learning to speak for the first time. He closed his eyes. His face crumpled. “I thought I’d never hear you call me that.”
My mother appeared behind me, breathing with rage. “What a lovely performance. Hidden for thirty years and now you come to poison my son.” My father stood up with difficulty. “I didn’t come for him. I came for Sarah. She called me last night.”
I looked at her. Sarah lowered her eyes. “I didn’t call you because I knew you wouldn’t believe me.” I wanted to say that I would. That of course I would. That I would have run to her. But the lie died before it was born. The night before, she had asked me “not today.” And I had locked the door.
“How do you know him?” I asked. My father pulled an old, yellowed hospital bracelet from his pocket, kept like a relic. It had my name on it:
Andrew Ralph Morales
. “Sarah found me three months ago,” he said. “She was looking for answers about your mother.”
My mother let out a dry laugh. “She was looking to separate us. That’s what she was looking for.” Sarah raised her face. She had tears, but no fear. “I was looking to understand why every time I tried to set a boundary, you made me look like I was crazy.”