I turned off the water.

“Know what?”

“That you’re unstable.”

There it was.

The next piece of his plan.

Not just accuse me. Discredit me.

That night, I packed a small bag and hid it in the trunk of my car. Clothes. Medication. Passport. Birth certificate. The earrings my grandmother left me. A flash drive with the footage. Another flash drive with bank statements.

Then I sat in my car in the school parking lot the next morning before anyone arrived, watching the sunrise turn the windows gold, and cried for the woman I used to be.

Not because she was stupid.

Because she had loved honestly.

That deserved mourning too.

Part 5
Julie’s fortieth birthday dinner was supposed to be casual.

At least, that was the word Daniel used.

“Casual family thing,” he said, buttoning his shirt in the mirror. “Try not to be weird tonight.”

I looked up from fastening my earrings.

“Weird?”

“You’ve been tense around Rachel.”

“She’s been in my house more than I have.”

His jaw tightened. “This is what I mean.”

I almost told him then. I almost turned from the dresser and said, I know. I have known for six weeks. I have seen what you did. I have watched you accuse me while carrying your own filth around like a crown.

But Vanessa’s voice lived in my head.

Do not confront him without a plan.

So I smiled.

“I’ll be polite,” I said.

“We should ride together.”

“I have a school fundraiser this afternoon. I’ll meet you there.”

This was only half true. There was a fundraiser. I could have skipped it. I didn’t because I wanted my own car.

Before I left, I called Mara.

“Tonight might be it,” I said.

“What does that mean?”

“I don’t know yet.”

“Claire.”

“I’m not going to start anything. But if he does…”

Mara was quiet for a moment. “Then finish it.”

Julie lived in a large brick house in a neighborhood full of basketball hoops, hydrangeas, and men who cared too much about lawn stripes. When I arrived, the party had spilled into the backyard. Children ran barefoot through the grass. Daniel’s uncle manned the grill like a sacred post. Elaine, my mother-in-law, kissed my cheek and told me I looked thin.

“You need to eat more,” she said.

“I’ll try.”

Rachel was by the patio table in that yellow dress, bright as a warning sign. She hugged me when she saw me.

Her perfume was familiar.

I realized why a second later.

It was mine.

Not the same brand. The exact perfume from my bathroom cabinet.

“You smell nice,” I said.

She blinked. “Oh. Thanks.”

Daniel watched us from across the yard.

For the next two hours, I performed the role expected of me. I laughed at jokes. I helped Julie carry dishes. I praised the ribs. I answered Elaine’s questions about when Daniel and I might have children with the same vague smile I had used for years.

“Soon, maybe,” Elaine said, patting my arm. “You two would make beautiful babies.”

The words hit somewhere deep and bruised.

Across the room, Rachel laughed at something Daniel said, her hand resting on his forearm. No one noticed. Or maybe people noticed and filed it away under siblings being close, the way I once had.

After dinner, everyone drifted inside. Julie opened gifts. Someone put music on. Daniel’s cousin Mark connected his phone to the TV to show photos from a cruise. The children sprawled on the carpet with cake-sticky hands. The adults settled into that warm, sleepy post-party looseness where people say things they might otherwise keep inside.

Daniel had been drinking.

Not enough to slur. Enough to feel brave.

I felt the shift before he spoke. His eyes followed me as I carried paper plates to the trash. He whispered something to Rachel. She shook her head sharply. He ignored her.

Then he walked toward me.

“Claire,” he said.

I turned.

The room was still noisy then. Forks clinking, children laughing, Mark narrating a photo of himself zip-lining in Cozumel.

Daniel’s voice cut through it.

“I need you to tell me the truth.”

Julie looked up from the couch.

I said nothing.

Daniel’s face had that clean, righteous expression I had grown to hate. The one he wore whenever he wanted to hurt me and call it honesty.

“Are you cheating on me?” he asked.

The first person to react was Elaine. She made a small sound, almost like a cough.

“Daniel,” Julie said.

He lifted a hand. “No. I’m done pretending. She thinks I don’t see things.”

I looked at Rachel.

Her lips had parted.

“Daniel,” she whispered. “Stop.”

He didn’t.

“She comes home late. She hides her phone. She flirts with men in front of me and then calls me paranoid. So I want her to answer. Right here.”